Dec 21 | Written By Alexandrea Blue
I knew this day would eventually come around sooner or later and luckily for me, it came later. My hair just did not want to fall out until about 2 months after my aggressive treatment. I am so thankful to have had more time to cherish my hair as it means a lot to me. This blog is going to be a little more on the positive side as I had so many family and friends there for me when I decided to shave my head. My mom came up with this great idea to have something called a "Shaving Party" where all of your close friends and family come to support you and watch you shave your head. At first, when my mom mentioned it I said "no" because I figured I would already be super insecure when my head was bald but then I decided it would be a great idea to have all of my friends and family there to support me which would make me feel at ease. Thinking about who I wanted to shave my head wasn't difficult at all, the first person that came to my mind was Alison and my dad Chris! Alison is a salon/business owner and an exceptional hairstylist. I first met Alison on October 1 when I got my hair done by Brittany. Alison has the biggest heart and is the most giving and loving person I have ever met. I reached out to Alison and she thankfully said "Absolutely." Alison was able to open her salon for all of my friends and family to gather while she shaves my head. I was so thankful to hear this and I was even more excited about it.
If you didn't know I am a cosmetology student that used to shadow at Salon Bellavi which is Alison's salon! I have dreamed of working there, which is why I was so thankful and excited to have my shave party there. Leading up to the day of the shaving party I was fine, ready to shave my head and get the hair off as it just got really hard to wash it every day. When the day did come I started to get nervous which is normal and I didn't wanna look at myself bald. Nobody wishes to shave their head especially when you love your hair so much, but I knew it was time. On Sunday, December 19 we had my shaving party at 4:00 pm and it went so well. I am so thankful for all of my friends and family that we're able to come out and support me, even the ones that supported me from a distance. Although, I wasn't feeling the best I missed being out and being able to see my family and my friends again. When it was officially time for the shave I could feel my hands getting sweaty and I felt sick to my stomach but I did it and we recorded the whole thing. (If you're interested in seeing the shaved head over to my Instagram @alexjblue and it is located on my story in my "cancer journey" highlight!) My dad has been dying to shave my head so we let my dad do the first shave and he began to cry immediately which then made me cry and everyone else cry. This was a happy but difficult moment for all of us. It brought tears to my eyes to see my boyfriend logan balling while it was happening. It ended up being such a great time and I am very thankful for everyone that came out and drove hours and even minutes to see this special moment.
It's been a few days since the shave and my attitude towards my head being shaved has changed. I thought it would be much easier to see myself bald but to be honest it's not. I don't like looking at myself in the mirror anymore. I have so many battle scars and now my head is bald which makes it much harder. Although this is only temporary it seems like an eternity. I miss the old Alex but with my army behind me and God holding my hand it makes everything much easier to cope with.